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"We write to taste life twice, in the moment and in retrospect." -Anaïs Nin
Week of Three Good Things11/26/2018 Throughout the week of October 30th to November 5th, I've taken note of 3 good things that have happened each day. While doing so I have learned to appreciate my life more. I used to do something similar to this activity on a weekly basis, but unfortunately veered off that track when I went through tough situations. It was nice to reflect and appreciate my life and everything that it entails, again. Doing it every day was definitely more beneficial than doing it every week (like I mentioned I used to). While it may have not been what I wanted to do on the days where I was struggling to find any positives, it helped me find the balance in every situation and made me feel lighter at the end of the week.
October 30th I went to class: I have been very unmotivated and depressed lately. Pulling myself out of bed has felt like enough of a struggle, but I still managed to make it to class. I hit shuffle and the song that I wanted to play came on: It's the little things that make me feel like the universe is looking out for me. I didn't get DCCC coffee: It is disgusting and makes me shake and SUPER expensive, yet I would always get it for some masochistic reason. I am proud of my restraint. October 31st It is Halloween: This is my favorite holiday. It felt so lonely and empty but I still made myself appreciate it for what it was. I got a tattoo: I got a flash tattoo done by my friend at the shop he works at. It was very spontaneous of me and I am very happy I got it done. I was advised to ask about an internship at the shop by my friend: My friend mentioned how they're looking for interns and suggested that I apply after looking at my portfolio. I felt really good that he had faith in my artistic abilities enough to push me in that direction, especially because we aren't that close and he didn't have to gas me up for any reason at all. November 2nd I went to Blaze Pizza in Philly with my friend, Ang: I love being in the city and I love food so it was nice for surface reasons. I also had the chance to go to her favorite pizza place which made me feel closer to her. Made up with an old friend: We had a disagreement and it ended in a nasty way. We got to talk everything out and make up. Went to a party where I didn't know who was going to be there for the most part: I ended up knowing about 75% of the people after I arrived because there were a total of maybe 11 people and the party SUCKED, but I stepped out of my comfort zone by going. November 3rd Rescheduled plans with my friend: While this may not seem like a big deal for most people, it was very nerve-racking to me. I have a really hard time letting people down or potentially upsetting them. I worked on it a lot throughout the last couple of years, but I was running on 30 minutes of sleep from the night before and felt very anxious about the whole conversation. It ended up being fine and we made plans for the following day. I went to a Momjeans. concert: My friend from school messaged me saying she had a free ticket to a concert I had to decline from going to due to my poor-paying job. I was grateful and excited and went 40 minutes after she offered them to me. It was an amazing experience and I almost threw up :) We went to the beach after the concert: The concert was in Asbury Park, NJ and the venue was a 3 minute walk to the beach. The sky was so clear and dark that it blended right in with the ocean. It was terrifyingly beautiful. November 4th I had brunch with my Aunt Crissie: Normally I would shake over these kinds of social situations, but it was very nice. We went to Azie in Media and had a great time. I felt comfortable talking to her as a 19-year-old instead of acting like I was still 13 like I used to do. Kimy's car broke down: It sucks that her car broke, but I ended up being able to go to the ride to drop her off with Ang and our other friend. I really enjoy car rides. Realizing I might want to go to Kutztown: Kimy goes to Kutztown and always tries to convince me and Ang to transfer after our 2 years are finished at DCCC. I have been giving it a lot of thought since. It could be really good for me to move away for a few years. I haven't been able to recall anything from the 1st or 5th of this month so I would like to add the last 2 days to this activity instead. November 25th I played Crash Bandicoot: Crash was one of my favorite games growing up and playing it last night reconnecting me to those days. I watched the fireworks at Tinicum: I get very uneasy when they are crowds involved, yet I pushed through. It was rewarding to see everything turn out alright and the fireworks were amazing. I saw my ex: It hurt and I wanted to throw up, but it reminded me why I can't be around him. It was exactly what I needed to experience to stop acting like a dumb bitch. November 26th I woke up and took a shower: I have been having a really hard time lately and haven't been motivated to do anything. Taking care of myself has felt nearly impossible, but I got myself out of bed when I woke up and showered. I saw some old friends: I am an introverted person, but lately I have been spending too much time by myself. I went out instead of staying in, alone, which was really nice and exactly what I needed. I did this assignment: I want to do better and I am trying so hard. Doing this assignment was a way of proving to myself that I am the only one who can make things work in my life.
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